My Baby is 10 !

When I had kahelelani I never would have guessed that she would be my last. I did hold her a ton despite Kaipo's advice to put her down. I am so glad I held her and loved her so much. I did that with both kids. I love that baby stage, so I had to savor every moment. I can't believe I have a 12 year old son and a 10 year old daughter. First of all I am not old enough, tell me where the last decade went. I don't feel 36, I am pretty sure I'm still in my early 20s.
Kahelelani is 10 years old and turning into quite the little diva. She is going to be grown up soon. I keep thinking about what I will do when the kids are grown, (which at this rate of speed will be next week). I want them to go and live their dreams and explore life, but at the same time I hope they don't go too far. They are my life and I want to be involved in their lives. Although I dont want to be a daughter or son in law's worst night mare. I should make some plans for such a time as I will be alone. Who knows, maybe I'll enjoy it. And Kaipo will be there a little. I hope my folks live a long time I'll just hang with them. Now I know why mom had lots of kids. She is just now getting to the empty nest stage. I'm only going to be in my fourties when I have an empty nest. Maybe foster care, or foreign exchange students. Who knows.
I am glad Kelani is growing up. She is so beautiful. She and I struggle some, but she knows I love her and I know she loves me. I am so grateful for her. She is an angel. I can't imagine my life without her.